13 weeks 2days

Well where to start....
i had my 12 week scan the other day, they have now moved my due date up to the 7th may instead of the 11 may,
Everything looked good with pumpkin, there was no free fluid no bleeding nothing,
and i got another little surprise more than likley I am having another boy, the ultrasound tech said that she couldnt be 100% sure it was a boy as there was a chance that it was the cord though yeah it pretty much looked like anther boy,
i go into hospital on theurday *7th* amd have my stitch put in, hopfuly they will let me come home the next day,
also pumpkins heart beat was a strong 154 BPM so i am so happy,
having another boy doesnt really upset me i was hoping though that my last baby would be a girl though as long as bub has a heart beat when its born i dont care what the sex is :)

11 weeks 3 days

Well where to start so much ahs been going on,
First let me say that little pumpkin is ok :)

though now i am a single mum :( Daniel and I have seperated, and i have left the house with Jason,

on something of a good note i have my NT scan next week on the 27th, so i get to see little pumpkin and hopfuly he/she is doing great,
I have felt movements for the past week on and off i think its pretty cool, i havnt had any more problems *touch wood*
i have to get blood work taken today for the NT scan to, so i hope that all goes well with it i am a bit nervouse with it, though it doesnt mattr the out come of the scan to the treatment that this baby is going to get though it would just be nice to know so i can better prepare myself,

10 weeks

Well where to start,
The past couple of days have just been all over the shot,
So i have had to get daniel to take me up to the emergency 2 nights in a row now,
the first time was because we was out diong shopping and i started having contractions, i started getting them out of no where,
it took 3 lots of morphine injectetion, also a nights stay in the emergency to get them to stop, well not stop all together though enough for painadole to make them ease,
then they told me to come back if i start bleeding as i have to have an Anti d incection because of my blood type,
so then yesterday i started to spot/bleed, so yet again i get daniel to take me up,
we was up there for 6 1/2 hours for nothing,
they took some bloods (nothing would of changed since the following night) also an internal again andmore swobs,
they took that long just to get all that and to speek to the gyni redg that jason started to crack up we packed 2 large feeds for jason that does him a long time, though he went through all of those and he really started to crack up so we had to leave, so i have no idea whats going on, if my baby is still ok or what,
they didnt even offer me an ultrasound to make sure everyhting is ok, concidering i am such high risk :(
so i am going to have to wait until to tuesday until i have my antinatal appointment to make surethe baby is ok.....
and totop it off i am still getting cramps,
some how i dont think this are looking so good.....

9 weeks

well i am 9 weeks today, it is seemingto go really fast,
not long now until i have my stitch placed in, hopefuly that will keep this baby in until my due date,
i swear i have been feeling little movments though i am pretty sure its still to early, though with bryce i first felt him move at 14 weeks, with jason he was at 12 weeks so i wonder if this one is now???
i have my 12 week ultrasound soon im really hopeing that everything is well, i havnt had an ultrasound since 6 weeks, so i am getting a bit nervouse, though i have the most cutes belly already

7 weeks 6 day

Well where to begin,
its jsut been one roller coaster ride after another,
my emotions are playing up on me, i am so tired and worn out,
jason seems to know something is going on as he has been demanding so much of my attention latley,
morning sicknss comes and goes, i have it pretty bad on and off, though not to the point i throw up jsut feel horrid all day,
cramos come abd go as well, i have a pbit of atummy already, i think i am going ot be huge this time around

6 weeks 4 days

I think i finaly have one of those smooth pregnacies, i know im not out of the woods yet, as i am only 6weeks and 4 days, thoughi havnt had any bleeding or spotting, i had jsut a little big a couple f weeks ago, the day after i had the surgery though nothing after that,
its really starting to sink in now that we are going to have our third child, i am really starting to look foward to it:)
i dont go for another ultrasound until the 27/10 thats my 12 weeks scan then after the can iget booked in to have the stitch placed into my cervix to hopfuly keep little pumpkin in there until full term,
i often wonder "what have dnaiel and i gotten ourselves into, though then i think about it,
God doesnt give you any more than what you can handel, and dnaiel andi have been through so much in 2 years i am sure 1 more child isnt going to put us over the top,
i often wonder what the sex of this baby is going to be, daniel keeps telling me its going to be a boy, and he is probaly right LOL though he has a 50% chance, though we have already had 2 boys so i guess that our thrid is going to be a boy to, though i would love to have a girl,
though as long as pumpkin is healthy i honestly dont care :)
also with all the crap that has been going on with people not being suportive of this baby, i have now said that they are having nothing to do with this baby, i know that its really going to annoy them though so what right? if they cant be there and give us well wishes, and only look on the bad side of it all then we dont need them in our lives,
well thats all for now ill update you all a little later

6 weeks 1 day

welli had my ultrasound today :) little pumpkin is going great :)
we saw a heartbeat of 112bpm :)
my huge cycst that i have has gone down and has started to bleed a little so i will be in some pain for a little while though allis good
YAY it seems so so so real now that pumpkin has a heartbeat,
what have i got myself into lol???
i love this little thing already :) and cant wait to meet him/her, though it has to stay in there until it is roast pumpkin

5weeks 6 days

OK so not to much has been going on, I have had morning sickness hit so bad now, im taking it as a good sign,
because with both Bryce and Jason i had it with them early on and i mean early like before i even found out,
i still havnt had any bleeding FX, so i am taking that as a good sign to, by this stage we lost jasons twin, and i had already started af type bleeding with Bryce, so nothing as of yet and i am so happy LOL
I have doctors tomorrow, going to get a refferal to get another ultrasound, so I can see the heartbeat and put my mind at ease, also we will see if there is only one or two,
I've been so so so moody as welli am crying at the drop of a hat :(also my head keeps thobing i know itspart and parcle of it though jsut need to get used to it again,
well jasons in bed and daniel is off at work, maybe i should go and have a lay down as well :)

Friend, Family or enemy???

Ok so i know that family and friends are surpossed to give you support i though all of our family would and all of our firends would though i guess i was wrong, My father couldnt be any more happier that we are ecpexting again, he is only worried that we might have another angel again and is worried how i will cope with that and i compleatly understand that
though to be aksed off a family member to have a termintation, thats just wrong
1) Who am i to have the right to take the life away that didnt even ask to be brought into the world
2) After have several Misscarrages and an angel boy, why wuold i want to terminate another life for???
3) Famaliy are ment to be there for support and for a should when you need it, not to tell you to kill a childs life

And it wasnt jstu once they asked me to do it, they first asked me to think about getting Pumpkin medicaly terminated when they first found out, and that i should think about Jason and daniel, and its not fair on daniel or jason ra ra ra
then once again they told me to really think about having this baby as its already put us through alot, because i had to have surgery the other day, as they thought pumpkin was going to be an ectopic pregnancy,

like what RIGHT do you have to ask that?? its NOT your life, its NOT your body and most of all this is NOT your child,
if you cant be the support that both daniel and i need, then dont even bother, i have the right to deny you the right to have anything to do with this baby, and if you are thinking i wont then think again,

Things will be done differently this time so hopefuly we will end up with a full term baby, though how will that happen if people keep thinking the worse

a new life has begun

Well Daniel and i are expecting our 3rd child,
I am happy,sad,nervouse and scared all at the same time,
I know that daniel and I wasnt really planning this baby, in fact it was the last thing that the both of us needed,
though its not going to cvhange the amount of love this child will recieve,
I have been told from a lot of friends, that god doesnt throw any more than what you can handle at you, so maybe Daniel and i are ready for this child,
after Loosing Bryce i didnt want to have any more child as i was scared that they would go through the same thing, though then we was blessed with Jason, and Jason was born really early,
He was born at 25 weeks and 4 day gestation and spent 88 days in hospital,
so i am really scared that this little pumpkin will be born really early to, and to be honest i dont know if i will be able to handle that though i guess one step at a
time will work :)